Hopetown, Bahamas, Dec 22, 2021
Retirement is interesting and frankly a bit scary. Today is my last day of work…really. I have gotten up everyday and had a defined place to go, defined something to do, and a required amount of money to make, no questions asked. Now…I just don’t. It was easy to blame any unhappiness on my job and the business of life that a job requires since it takes up 5 days a week, 8 hours a day. So, what happens when you are unhappy when you aren’t working? Do you just become a grumpy old person? Does it mean you failed at retirement when you are outside of work, you have no idea what to do? They say loneliness is worse than smoking or high blood pressure but does retirement cause loneliness? I think this was certainly what happened during the pandemic for some folks who lived alone and couldn’t get out to see others. Perhaps the key is to be a bit social, and not just try to cram so much stuff in a week that you don’t have the time and energy to question your own happiness.
I can’t say I am not afraid of failing at retirement but boy, I sure want to try! Sailing and retirement have something in common, long stretches of quietness with moments of sheer terror. I think once I get started, I will figure this out pretty quickly. And tomorrow is like the first day of kindergarten. It’s time to say goodbye to my old life – as U2 would say “It’s the End of the World as we Know It.” I have made quite a few major changes to do that already but now I get to rip off the bandaid off some old habits too. There just won’t be a place to hide any longer.
Ron and I simply got to a point of enough. You know that place. Where you could make more money but don’t need it, could get the next promotion but don’t want it, could spend more time at work but just can’t find the motivation to do so. We were there and had just had enough. We had enough of work, the politics, the conference calls, and we both believed our time is so much more valuable. This is the one thing where we didn’t have enough.
In sailing affairs, Ron spent yesterday getting the generator running so we can attempt to make water again which will be nice. Just for fun we want to check out the grocery store. We need to break a $20 for tips anyway and I am sure we can buy a can of corn since we won’t be able to afford a candy bar or pop. We have been on the boat working, fixing stuff (Ron), and doing laundry for the last few days. It will be nice to get off and walk a bit. We will see how bad the winds are to take the ferry to Marsh Harbor. I need to ship back my computer but had a nice little storm pass through here last night.